THOUTHS AND PRAYERS FOR A NEW YEAR

As we entered a new year, I was in bed and ready to turn out the light. Meanwhile, some of my grandchildren were gathered together and celebrating like the mothers use to - by bangging pots and pans. They are young and looking forward to what the new year will bring. I, on the other hand, was thinking about the year that had just ended and remembering all that had happened to me in the past year. I started the year 2010 with a very optimistic attitude but it started down hill almost immediately. I spent a told of 10 weeks in the hospital, lost most of the use of my right hand and part of my left. And my kidneys failed and I am now on dialysis. I also had to give up my job. I have spent a lot of time feeling sorry for myself and missing the ability to do the things I would like to do. Recently, one of my granddaughters reminded me that without dialysis I would not be here. Of course, she is right. I am saving up for a small computer so I can take it to dialysis. It will help pass the time.

I have had three procedures done on my arm so that I can get the perm ma cath (?) out of my neck and be able to shower without using the hand held hose. I also will be able to swim. It isn't looking real good right now but hopefully they can do something to msake it work.

This year is going to be a good year. I am going to enjoy my family and can not wait to see Kellie's new home. Please pray that I will keep a good attitude. Love to all.